So it's been about a week and a half since I last wrote. Whenever the time, it's been a while.

A lot of things have been going on. Some I don't care to write about or even mention.
But in the school category, things are going well. Only a few more weeks until spring break which means tons of work but hey, only a few months until graduation.
I am so excited to be leaving GCCC, you cannot even imagine.

As for UWF, most of the stuff is already done. I am waiting on my housing to come back and tell me who I'm rooming with. It's kind of weird. I'm anxious to know who it is, but scared that it'll be some off the wall person. haha. I have irrational fears.

I've basically ran out of things to say so I'm just gonna leave with some pretty cool lyrics.
This is 'Keys to the Kingdom' by Group 1 Crew. Check them out at: http://www.group1crew.com

They say we're all in the pursuit of happiness A life that's fabulous we fight for our beliefs like an activist The struggles here can be seen across the atlas And it started when Adam choseto give up his palace Now the earth waits for its rightful owner 2,000 years ago the 2nd Adam told us the kingdom is at hand, died for the sins of man just so he can where we rule over the land meet every demand while nature waits for kings to take a stand so we need to understand we can change our circumstances the kingdom is therefore we choose when to advance it

[Chorus]
You got the keys inside this kingdom, lift up your head is only begun, keep holding on and you'll see the son everybody sing it now [x2]

I heard you say that you would die for me gladly give your life for me, cry for me, all so I could call you when I'm so in need of promises you've spoken, my heart was always broken cause you gave the keys to life but in my pride I had them stolen, you say that you redeem us and bring us to a place where we can see the keys can never be stolen they just misplaced and so we rise from the ashes, stand before the masses proclaim the victory is ours and so we never give up, even though times get hard to understand, its never enough for us to sit back and hope he has a plan we gotta stand up and face the cold with a boldness that is focused on the fact we have the keys so just believe there's nothing closed

So many promises you gave, and we just turned and walked away but now I see the price you paid was enough for us to live victorious

So today is Valentine's day. A commercial day to show someone your love.
To some it's the ultimate day to express your undying love to a spouse, friend, or possibly even a stranger.
To others, it's a lonely day filled with bad memories and depressed thoughts.

For me this day is bittersweet.
I am around some of the ones that I love. Others are around because I can't get rid of them.

But there are people that I wish were here that aren't.
It's hard living daily life without them and holidays like this make it a little harder.
Even though these times are tough there's still something wonderful about being with loving people.

So if this day is a bad one, I am here to tell you that it's okay.
It's okay to be upset on holidays. It's okay to hurt. And it's also okay to love.

Because in reality it's what we all long for. We all just want to be loved.



If you have time, check out the live chat with TWLOHA's Jamie on AbsolutePunk.net at 8pm EST.
I'll see you there. :)

So not much has passed since I last blogged. Although I did start another blog. It's kind of different, it's a photoblog. CHeck it out: http://www.alifeinlivingcolor.blogspot.com/

Anyways, this blog has a specific purpose. I want to tell you all about the TWLOHA/AbsolutePunk.net chat on Valentine's day.

Valentine's Day is a very commercial holiday that I myself do not support. Mainly because it makes single people feel left out and sometimes hurt.

But it does not have to be that way. You can share Valentine's day with people who feel the same way, have the same hurts, and the same problems.

TWLOHA is close to my heart and a movement I whole-heartedly support.

I think you should join the chat. Who knows...you might meet some amazing people.

Courtesy of myself and http://www.wordle.net

Have you ever had one of those days where your will power is all gone?

Well today was one of those days.

I tell myself that things need to change. I need to stop eating for all the wrong reasons.

I am not hungry, I am just upset or bored.

And I was doing so well.

But today for some reason I just about ate everything in sight.

Now I feel totally disgusting.

Gosh, everything is just spinning out of hand.

There are so many things that I want to say, but I cannot find the correct words.
So much has been going on and I've been too busy to even think about putting my thoughts down.

I think something must be in the water. People are going crazy, acting out of character, and just being all around weird. Friends who were once close are pulling away for no reason. I cannot understand how someone can call themselves a friend and be there when the times are fun and happy yet they pull away when life goes back to normal. I just don't know what to make of it.

Then lately, old memories have been creeping back into the light. Things that although they made me who I am, I would love to forget.
There are days when I wish everything was different and the world was all right again. Back to the way things used to be. But then I stop to think that maybe, just maybe if things had not changed I would not know how to survive. I would never have gone through a tragedy, I would not know how to cope, and I would not know how to appreciate life in all of it's precious glory.
It's kind of like the Bible says:
If we never went through the valleys how would we know how to appreciate the mountain tops?

I, for one, cherish each mountain top. Because there is always the chance that it will be my last view from the top.

I almost forgot about this thing. ha ha

There hasn't been a lot going on. School has been...well school.

But I must say that public speaking class is stressing me out. I am supposed to give a speech either tomorrow or Monday and that really freaks me out.

I am really bad at talking in front of people, I babble and say all the wrong things. Every time it ends up as a disaster.

At least my speech won't be the worst. The first guy who got up to speak used a Star Wars quote. Which I am the biggest Star Wars fan ever, but the quote this guy used was the most random one ever. He stuttered and rambled, which made me feel a little better.

In other news, I am a brunette again, well at least I think so.

I went from black to dark brown and there's not a whole lot of noticeable difference. ha ha

At least the upkeep is minimal.

I think that's about it. Not much has been happening and I hope it stays that way.

:)